I suck!!

Well as you all know by now I suck at keeping up with this! I don't know how many times I have sat down to write in here and just either haven't had the time to or haven't had the words to do so. I was going to do a first day of school blog for Ls first day of school but I didn't get the time to get it together and then it was her 4th and 5th and so on and then it was like is there even a point? It is currently 1am and I am laying in bed writing this on my phone. L woke up tonight after sleeping for about 4 hours with a nasty cough that I'm prettt sure was a croup cough. L has never had croup before but I have read about it a few times and she defiantly had that barking sounding cough. I took her into the washroom and turned the shower into high and sat in there with her for a good 12-15 min and her cough almost disapeared completely. I gave her some Benadryl cause that's like one of the only things she can have at her age other than Kids Tylenol or Advil which I feel like with colds do nothing. I proped her up on 3 pillows so she's laying in an angle to help her breathe through the night. Fingers crossed she feels better in the morning and has a good sleep. I also have a humidifier going in our bedroom as well. It is a super busy time of year for me work wise so I don't have a lot of time other than to work and be with my kid but I plan to get back on here soon and maybe pre plan some blog posts. I don't think anyone actually reads this blog anyways so I don't think it's a huge deal I haven't posted lately but it's more for me to get stuff out and talk about things and what not so maybe in the near future  I will get better at it. Well I guess I should at least attempt to get some sleep tonight cause god only knows I don't have time to take a nap tomorrow (what are naps lol) hoping L doesn't wake up early and sleeps all through the night fingers crossed! Night!

Weight Watchers Week #3 & #4 and what I have learned

 
Week 3

Well I was bad and skipped blogging about WW week #3 it really wasn't totally intentional but I had a lot going on. We went away for the weekend and I had my WW guidelines in my head and I tried to think about the points I was eating and drinking and tried to stay within a certain amount but I also tried to enjoy myself and have a couple drinks and what not. So After our weekend away it was time to weigh in and I was up +2.8lbs It sucked but in the same sense I knew it was coming I knew I was going to be up and therefore I was prepared for it. I was a little disappointed but as i said I had prepared myself to see a higher number on the scale that weigh in.

Week 4

Yesterday was weigh in day and normally I would try and do my blog that day. Yesterday turned into a very busy day starting in the morning so I ended up running around and doing other things that needed to get done instead. So I had gained weight the week before and knew I wanted to see a lower number yesterday. I was so hopeful I had tried to stay on track as much as possible and had tried to keep my steps up as well and keep moving which I find hard at times especially when I have a lot of work piling up. So Weigh in I stepped on the scale and entered it into my WW app and I was down -4.8lbs YAY!! I totally did a happy dance. I was so happy with myself. I am totally pumped and ready to see what I can do this week.

More about my experience with WW

My first time on the program I tried for a good couple months and my numbers were all over the place and  I got very discouraged. I never lost more than I believe it was 8lbs in that time and I just ended up giving up.

Now looking back at my first try and even my second try on WW I don't think I totally understood the program as much as I do now. I always thought that If I didn't eat all my points and I stayed well below my points that I would loose more weight and I also ate a lot of low point processed foods instead of healthy low point foods because it was easier. This is not the case you have to eat those points they actually tell you on the app that you should be in a certain range of point eating to give you the best results. So lets say I get 37SP a day and 42weeklies my range of eating that is good for me would be to eat 34-44SP a day. Awesome but that also means 34-44Sp in good for you foods not 34-44sp of chocolate or chips or something like that cause that defiantly wont work.

Another thing I have found helpful is I take pictures of most of my meals and post them on my instagram kind of as a food journal. And then this helps as well. But the biggest thing that is really nice is in the WW app there is this thing called Connect and its basically a WW chat instagram meets twitter kind of idea where you see people who are on WW posting their struggles and successes and everyone on there is very helpful and up lifting. I post my weigh ins each week and its amazing the encouragement you get from these people who don't know you at all.

Weight Watchers Week #2

This week was defiantly more of a challenge. I did so well week one and this week just got the better of me. It's no excuse but this week was extremely busy. I tried to eat my 3 meals a day the best I could but it didn't happen everyday. We ate out a lot more this week which also didn't help I tried to eat the best I could while eating out things with mostly vegetables. I did indulge a couple days this week and there was a day where I just about gave up and had a Peanut buster parfait from Dairy queen which would have been a whooping  35sp. I opted to have nothing and fight the urge which I felt really good about later.

I didn't do any exercise this week except for trying to keep up with my steps. I did notice this week that I have felt more tired than I have lately. I have also felt sick after eating certain foods this week.  

So this week was a little bit of a crap shoot but I weighed in this morning and was down -1.4 lbs. I'm sure if I had stuck to it more then I would have lost more. This week I will try harder and stick to the plan better and see what the outcome is. 

Week 2 -1.4 lbs 

Total loss -6.2 lbs 

95.8 lbs left till goal!! 

Weight Watchers Week 1

Week 1 Back on WW! I have done weight watchers a few times before and was successful one of those times but only successful by 10lbs and then I was stuck. I have never really lost more than that on the program. So Since January I have gained way to much weight I mean like 50lbs almost and have been really depressed and just not doing very well for for myself and I needed to change things. I still had a WW account as I had resigned up a little while back but wasn't at all successful. So Last Monday I weighed myself joined a competition with some other ladies on Facebook and started tracking again. I tracked every day and ate really well I cut all sugar out of my diet. I don't even have it in my coffee anymore and I used to have 2 in my coffee. I went for a walk everyday to try and get myself moving more and I started eating 3 meals a day plus snacks. I feel really good and my family has even noticed a change in my mood.

To day was weigh in day for my first week and I am down -4.8lbs !! I was so excited to see that number. I have 102 lbs to goal and that just knocked me down to 97.2 lbs to Goal. I can't wait to finally get to my goal weight. I have been 20lbs from my goal weight before but came up short and gained a bunch back. This time I am going to make it and this time I am going to Do a weekly check in and update on here to keep myself going hopefully.

A great day!

Today I would say was a great day! When ever L and I plan to do something special on a day such as going to see a movie like today. I try to make it a special day for her. We don't get out all the time as I don't have my license yet (Still working on it). So today we went to see Despicable me 3 Which I knew L would sit and watch at the theatre and be happy to see. We went to the closest theatre here (there are 2 in the city) and we tried out the new reclining seats which I have to say were pretty awesome. I haven't been to the movie theatre in ages as the seats always bother my legs and I get restless. Today was a different story and I was happy about it. I was really happy with how well L did at the movies she sat really well and watched the movie she laughed and was pretty quite which for a kid that never stops talking was pretty good. When we got to the theatre we went straight to the concession stand cause of course we needed to have popcorn. It took forever for the guy at the concession to get the order of the person at the front of the line. It ended up that we were late getting into the movie but the only thing we missed luckily was the previews. The movie it's self was ok but I did almost fall asleep a few times.

After the movie was over L raved about it and how fun it was. She wants to go back and do it again! At the theatre they have an arcade and of course we had to go and play a few games. First I had to figure out how it now worked as they no longer have the tokens and stuff  I was used to. We went and got a swipe card for the games. we played a bunch of games some of them were better than others and some were easier than others for L to play. After that we moved on.

We went shopping next Carters was having a big sale so we went and I got L a new dress and a new pair of shorts cause I'm trying to watch how much I spend these days. We went to a few other stores and didn't buy anything just looked around and window shopped I almost bought a bunch of stuff at one store but then I went and put everything back I was a good girl.

After walking down through all the stores we went to a restaurant and had some dinner. We ordered and then sat and waited for it to come we cuddled a little and then L put her head down on my lap and she was out like a light. Our food ended up coming while she slept on my lap so I had to eat very carefully haha. I ended up having to get the waitress to grab the ketchup off the table for me because it was on the other side of the table and I couldn't reach it. Once I finished my food the service at the restaurant went down hill from there. I didn't see the waitress after that for at least 20 minutes and then L woke up and had to use the washroom so we grabbed our stuff from the table and went to the washroom when we got back to the table they had started to clear our table but had left it. I sat there for a little while longer trying to get someone to help me but no go. So finally the manager came along and asked if I needed anything and I told her I had been waiting for my waitress to come and get me the bill but she hadn't come back so the manager went and got it and got me to pay through her. We could finally leave. I probably could have walked out and no one would be the wiser but I'm not that kind of person I just don't tip well when you ignore me.

All in all it was a great day and L enjoyed it immensely!

Best Birthday EVER!

So as stated in another post it was L's birthday this weekend and we went away to a local resort that recently opened up. Her birthday happens to be the same day as Canada day so we always try to make it special for her. The last few years we have always done her birthday on her birthday and just done it at lunch so that others could attend but still partake in their evening fireworks and all. I wasn't sure how this year was going to go as I still wanted her birthday to feel like her birthday to her.

L has been counting down to her birthday for over a week and she would always ask me how many more sleeps until my birthday mom and I would show her with my fingers. While away we shared a bed and It was the funniest/cutest thing. L woke up the morning of her birthday looked over at me in bed and said mommy look. She held up her fist showing there were no more sleeps to count and yelled "IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!" I have never seen this kid more excited.

I wanted to wait to open presents until my sister was able to watch her considering the whole reason we were staying there was so that she could be there for her birthday. But my little 4 yr old couldn't wait she had to have her presents!! So I ended up recording as she opened them up. As she opened up her first present she started saying "it's you will see" as she tried to get her present out of the box I ended up having to tell her to turn the box upside down to which the baby fell out of the box for her to show us. She was super excited to have her new baby as her old one was mangled and broken.

Her second present from mommy was a Plasma car. She has ridden on one of these at a friends house and the kids had so much fun on them I figured if I could get it for a good price I would get her one which I did. She was super excited when she opened that present and insisted that her Papas build it right away!

I bought a special shirt for L to wear that day as it was Canada day I still wanted her to be noticed for her birthday so she wore a Happy Birthday to me shirt for Old Navy.

It ended up being a rainy day so we drove into the next town and went to Walmart to pick up some board games and supplies. When we got back to the cabin we were staying in my sister had left surprise birthday cupcakes for L. We ate them and sat on the floor of the cabin playing and watching Sing on my laptop. Thankfully the weather got nicer and we were able to go outside and play a bit. We went and had a late dinner at the restaurant and L got a special piece of cake with rose cut strawberries.

That evening we went out to the docks and we went fishing with L's new fishing rod (the rod sucked) we didn't catch anything but we had fun for a bit.

We had a hard time finding fireworks but were able to see some someone was putting off near by we just had to watch them through the trees but it was good enough for us.

L went to bed a very satisfied and tired child!

She said mom that was the BEST birthday EVER!
(Mission accomplished)
What she didn't know was that there was a surprise party for her the very next day!

Going to school, turning 4 and life

In Just a few more months L will be going for her first day of school! Aww my little girl is growing up so fast I can't believe it. In only 3 days she is going to be a 4 year old! How did this happen!? I know how it happened I just mean that time has gone so fast. I can remember holding her when she was first born and thinking to myself that school and her being 4 was so far away boy was I wrong. She is a pretty Special person that I can say for sure. She is very very friendly when it comes to other kids and can make friends within a minute of meeting them. I'm hoping thats a good sign for when she starts school. She knows her full name and can verbally spell her first and last name and can write her first name and we are just working on her last name. She can tell you what my name is and where she lives and even what country she lives in.

She is counting down the days this morning she woke up and goes mommy theres only 3 more days till my birthday! My dad and I went out last night and bought some party supplies, She has been asking for a unicorn piñata like a crazy person so of course as a good mother I went and got her one. Unfortunately they were all out of unicorn balloons so we just got a giant 4. I so excited to celebrate her birthday with her this year we aren't totally celebrating it on her actual birthday but the day after and we have family and friends coming out to our cabin that we are renting for the weekend. She doesn't know that everyone is coming out yet. I'm hoping to surprise her as she has been asking people to come and hide with the lights out and she will walk in and we will surprise her haha what a kid.

Tomorrow my life may change for the better! I go for my driving test tomorrow and I'm super excited about it and just can't wait to be able to just go whenever I want. I think it is going to open up the summer for L an I to get out and do a lot more and have some fun. I think it will also help with business as well. Thats something I'm looking forward to. It's actually funny for me because I really am not nervous about the test or driving in general but I know before I even started driving it scared the crap out of me. Now I am not nervous at all. I just got back from my lesson today and she thinks I'm going to do well on the test tomorrow so that makes me feel good tomorrow we will go out again and do another drive and then I have my test. Wish me Luck!!

Where have I been?

Where have I been? Well I have been working and taking care of my kiddo and it has just been a lot since kiddo is no longer in daycare. Before I had a lot more time to myself to sit down and write and plan things out and now I just don't. I have 2 other jobs/ businesses and they are my main source of income so they come first before this. I think posts are going to be a little more sparatic until L is in school on September. I've been wanting to get on here and write some stuff do some reveiws but it just hasn't been possible. It will be eventually and I will be back at it probably not everyday but as I have said in past posts I want to get on more of a schedule with this. So until next time hope all is well.

Health and Mental Health

By the title of this post I am guessing that you have an idea of what this post is all about or you have an idea. These past few weeks as you know I haven't been posting much. I have posted a few posts to keep you updated as best I could or just wrote that things are tough right now. Today is the last day of the month and I am so glad and hoping that next month is awesome! May has been hard for me personally and for some of my loved ones around me there have been a lot of things that have happened including cancer battles, dangerous falls, mental health issues and many more.

My struggle has been with my mental health and my physical health. It has all gotten out of control and I am grasping at straws to get back in control of it all. I personally suffer from Depression and it has been a struggle that I have dealt with for years basically over 10 years. It usually doesn't get too bad and I can work through it pretty easily but this month has been a big test on myself. I have chosen to not medicate my depression and It's defiantly ok if anyone else reading this does you have to do whats right for you. We all have the choice to do what we think is best for us and for me personally medication just always made me feel worse then I already did so I have always chosen to deal with it on my own.

I have been very depressed this month and overwhelmed. Because of this I have let my physical health suffer and my weight has gone way up and I now am struggling to get it to go back down. I have always struggled with my weight and my appearance and have low to no self esteem. I am currently the biggest I have been since I was a teenager and that was over 13 years ago. I lost almost 100lbs probably about 5-6 years ago and was the smallest I had ever been but wasn't yet at my goal but was so close. Then life happened and I had L and a lot of different things happen and never got back to how well I was before. I wish desperately that I could get back into the mind space I used to have when it came to working out and the way I ate.

I have started to make some new goals for myself and Next month is a new beginning and the new Beginning starts June 1st! Wish me luck!

Took a Break

Well Hello again as you can tell I took a little break. I needed a break this has been a difficult month and a great month all in one. Business this month has been tough really tough. The weather has been really bad and therefore I have had to reschedule a lot so therefore money has been very tight. It was seriously one thing after another and I got very depressed while this was all going on. This has been a hard month for my anxiety and depression and I have been dealing with it the best I can but as most of you know it is a hard thing to deal with. I have been debating on what to write on here and haven't been able to put the words together. I have a lot of upcoming things with my business so it is going to make next month super busy so I will try to keep up with this as best I can. I apologize for such a short post but I want to give you an update.

Re analyzing

ok so the goal for this blog was to post everyday except for Saturday and Sunday. It's just not working out so I'm coming up with a different game plan I'm thinking posting twice a week would be ideal. Business is getting busier and my time is becoming less. If I can narrow this down to 2 days a week of posting and make better fuller posts with that then that is what I am going to do.

Weekend update Monday #3

I didn't get around to posting on Friday. I am sorry! This past week and weekend have been a struggle. I feel slightly defeated and overwhelmed at the moment and I am glad at the moment that I have this platform to write it all out. Not this weekend that passed but the weekend before I had a bunch of clients scheduled and ended up having to reschedule them all as it was raining pretty hard. It rained most of the week letting up for a couple hours here and there. L and I did get out and do a bunch of stuff to keep her busy as I now have her home full time. So this weekend I had rescheduled a few clients and it ended up raining yet again so those all got cancelled. On Sunday I was supposed to have a client come to my home and do there session in studio but guess what the basement flooded and I had to bring everything that could get damaged up to my studio area and had to cancel the session and reschedule. It has literally one thing after the other and I currently have nothing coming in so I am feeling the pressure. As much as it was nice having L in daycare I'm happy I don't have to struggle to find the money to pay that this week. Guess what is happening right now it is snowing! What the! It is May 8th and it is snowing everywhere around us is flooding there are roads closed and conservation areas blocked off. Peoples docks are floating away it's crazy right now. I'm trying to not let myself depressed and hoping that things will soon turn around and go in my favour but that's getting harder. We will just have to wait and see what this week brings.

My Apologies

I apologize I didn't post anything yesterday. I had the full intention of writing something out yesterday and posting even if it was something small but the day got away from me. This is my first week home with L full time. It's been a bit of a change and I'm trying to balance both my work life and my paying attention and parenting my child life. We have done a lot in the last couple days that hasn't given me anytime to get on here and write. I'm pre planning a bunch of posts so that I don't get too far behind as I would really like to keep this blog going. It's some what of an outlet for me and I do enjoy it even if I'm not very good at it.

Today was a full day of excitement we went to a free playdate at our local kids indoor gym which L loved! I met up with an old friend who I haven't seen in probably 8 years which was great she had one of her 4 kids there and I had L. It was funny watching L show her little guy how to go places in the gym and help him out of places when he was stuck. She is a total mother hen. After we spent a good hour and a half at the gym we went over to our local Crock-a-doodle and painted some pottery that L is going to surprise her grandma with for mothers day. She was so excited and loved every minute of it she would go there again in a heart beat and so would I. We ended out big day with a visit to McDonald's where we ate Lunch together.

All in all it was a pretty good day for us and tomorrow I am totally planing on not leaving the house and enjoying being home and hopefully getting a bunch of work done that I haven't gotten done yet OOPS!

Potty Training! *Tip Tuesday*

Potty training was the worst!! I don't think I have had such a hard time with anything else that had to do with L learning something. Potty training was by far the hardest thing for me as a mom to deal with. I did give up on several occasions.

When L turned 1 I started getting her into potty training mode. I wanted her to get used to the idea of it and wanted to see if she could be potty trained by the time she was 2. Everyone and there mother was giving me advice and telling me that it was either really hard or really easy for them. I had one Gentleman offer to give me his wife's number because supposedly she was the potty training guru!

I tried taking her diaper off and just letting her go bear bummed for the weekend and she peed everywhere and wanted her diaper on. So that was a bust. Yes I could have tried a little longer with her but I didn't want to have to clean and sanitize my entire house every hour.

I tried giving her rewards for peeing we started with m&m's and that lasted a week, Then it was Kinder eggs which lasted a while but she got to the point where she would run to the potty sit on it not do anything and expect an egg and then pee in her diaper. We tried Shopkins and again it worked for a short time but then was expected every time her bum hit the seat.

We finally went to Walmart one day and were walking around. L was just over 3 and she noticed the big cars that you can drive and she wanted one sooo bad. So we made a deal for every pee on the potty she got a dollar and for every poo she got 2 dollars. Well you should have seen the sparkle in her eyes! That was it since that day she has had a total of 2 accidents and they weren't her fault she made almost $100 before I cut her off and she was fully trained.

Once she was totally day trained I took diapers away at night as soon as I started noticing that she was getting up in the night and in the morning to go potty. I keep her potty in the bedroom for those occasions it took a week to have her night trained and we have been going strong ever since.

It's true what they say once they are ready they will let you know and it will be easy. Until then it's a pain in the butt haha!

Weekend update Monday #2

Saturday

Woke up early today and got ready for the day with L. She dressed herself so it was a very eccentric outfit she had a white and red sparkly sweater on with grey pants and then a green and yellow sunflower spaghetti strap dress over top of it all. Thankfully she ended up taking the dress off. I spent the day out at work. I  didn't think or realize that I was going to be sitting out in the sun all day and I should wear sunscreen so that was a fun learning experience.

Sunday

Woke up today and it is pouring rain out so all my plans have changed. Was supposed to be out with another full day of work but due to the rain everything was cancelled. I totally feel like a crispy lobster today though I hurt and am super itchy on my scalp and face. I'm hopeful that that will only last a day or two and turn into an awesome tan. That's usually hope it works for me. So since plans changed I get to spend the day with L and play and have some fun. Tomorrow is going to be totally different for us I can actually sleep in (if she actually allows me too). Have I mentioned that my child is scared of movies even the mention of a movie sends her into a panic. I just got Mary Poppins in the mail on Bluray for my mom and we decided to put it on and watch it today while we were working. Well L got so upset that she hid behind the couch crying. We told her it wasn't scary and she would love it she didn't believe us. We got her to calm down and start watching her TV show in the other room and put the movie on hoping that the singing would bring her into the room and spark her interest. Eventually we called her out to show her some of the fun stuff that happens on Mary Poppins and she ended up sitting there and watching it with us. I asked her last night if she wanted to watch it again and she excitedly said yes.

Monday Morning

We all went to bed last night fairly early. We were all very tired last night and ended up going to bed at 9:30pm. It was a great sleep last night L woke me up at 6 am asking if I remembered to charge her iPad which I hadn't. So she switched blankets with me because I was using her favourite one and she feel back to sleep. It is now 8:25am and I just woke up about 15 min ago and L is still sleeping. This is L's first day of no daycare during the week. Wish me Luck!

Last day

Today is L's last day of daycare. I don't really know what I want to say today. It's one of those days that I'm at a stand still. I have no idea how the. Ext few months are going to go with having L at home and working my business. It scares me but I'm optimistic. Today I went and ordered a new phone because I desperately need a new one. I am looking forward to getting it and setting it up. I wasn't going to get a new phone this soon after making a big purchase I just made. Charging my phone 3 times a day and not having any memory on it to take pictures or anything has just not been working for me so it was needed. This weekend is a very busy weekend for me and therefore my parents will thankfully be watching L tomorrow. Thank goodness for them! This is going to be a very short post today I appologize. As I said it's been a weird day for me.

Daycare no more!

So L only has a couple days left and then she is done with Daycare. I have such mixed feelings about this I took the plunge this year and a lot of things are changing for us I went full time with my business. So I stay home all day and work from home. L has gone to daycare since she was 1 and full time since she was 2. I feel like My daycare has raised her more than I have which is a very weird think to think and I kind of hate that I think that. It's basically the same as a kid being in school the teachers have your kids all day so they are the ones taking care of your children.

The plan was that at the end of June L would be done daycare and I would have her home with me for 2 months before she starts school in September. This is no longer the plan as Daycare needs to let her go now. So I will have L home with me full time for 4 months instead of 2 which in all honesty is fine with me. L is such a good kid and I'm looking forward to spending time with her and doing things.

The other thing that will be really nice is saving money Daycare is so expensive and I have L in one of the cheaper daycares but I end up paying $700 a month. I am looking forward to not having to fork that out each month and hopefully we can put that money away instead. Hopefully that will bring us closer to our goal of buying our own home.

I have a bunch of things planned for the first few weeks of no Daycare. L has been wanting to go to the library for a little while now so I think I will probably take her there one day next week. She loves books and reading so it could be pretty fun.

I also have a plan for us to go to a local indoor playground we have here which she loves. If we go in the morning between 10-12 They have a discount and free coffee so that's a bonus! I'm also going to see if L's little boy friend and his mom can go as well to make it more fun for her. We will see!

It's going to be different and fun all in one. I'm working on getting things organized and planned in the fact that I want to start doing a chore chart and rewards system with L. I was going to do it with a money reward but have since decided that I am going to do a ticket reward system. she earns so many tickets depending on what the task is and then She can cash in her ticket for certain rewards that will have different ticket costs. Its still a work in progress.

Wish us luck!

Crayola Bathtub Crayons *Wednesday Review*

Today's Wednesday review is Crayola's Bathtub Crayons. When I saw these in the store I was kind of excited I thought L will love these! L loves to colour so bath time and colouring just seemed perfect. So last night it was bath time and I decided to surprise her with them and try them out for the first time.

You get 10 colours in the package. There is a little clicking part on the crayons that allow you to move them up out of their plastic casing. I find with the plastic casing I like it but then I also found that the crayon was very wobbly in it so you can't move the crayon up too fast or they will brake off.

The Crayon has great colour and goes on pretty thick. They are basically actual crayons just in a plastic case. L loved these and drew all over the tub. She asked to draw on the tile wall so I told her to test it out in a little patch to make sure it would wipe off before we committed. When she drew she drew slightly in the grout between the tiles and we weren't able to get the crayon to come off the grout. So this should only be used on tile and bath and stay away from the grout. 

After a while of drawing (even the adults were colouring) it was time to get out and clean up so here is the real test. The crayon was relatively easy to wipe off with just a wet paper towel. If you touched any of the crayon with your hands it would come off onto your skin but easily washed off. 

The only issues with these that I found was that I have some pink left over crayon colouring that I can't seem to clean off of the side of the tub. So now I have a slight pink colour on the inside sides of the tub. It's not totally noticeable and I'm hoping in time it will come off. It was a little disappointing though to not be able to totally clean it up. I even tried using a mild bleach spray and that didn't help.

All in all I like this product but probably won't use it again We tried the crayons again tonight and it left marks on the tub that I am having a hard time cleaning up and since the tub has dried marks that I thought I had cleaned are now showing from the other day. All in all I would give this product a 3 out of 5. It's a lot of fun and well constructed but leaves marks in the tub which just isn't something I want. 

Baking With Mommy *Tip Tuesday*

Tip Tuesday! Heres my tip if you want to bake but don't want to do a lot of clean up or don't have a ton of time Quaker Muffin Mix is what you need! I know there is always things like pillsbury products that you just roll out and they are ready for the oven, but my kiddo always wants to do more then just roll out dough. L loves to bake and make things so this gives a little extra for her to do. There are only 3 ingredients needed, Muffin mix, water and an egg. We always add chocolate chips but you could probably add fruit or something else to them as well.

We usually make a 12 muffins which is 3 cups of mix. There is enough mix to make 24 muffins. All you have to do is pour 3 cups of mix into the bowl add in the 3/4s water and 1 egg. Mix that all together and you are ready to add them to your muffin pan. We always add about a cup of chocolate chips give or take. L loves to be the one to crack the egg which I have to say she does a great job at. L basically makes them on her own while I watch her and instruct her on what to do next.

The next thing we do is take a ice cream scoop and scoop the batter into the muffin pan. The oven should be preheated to 400 already. Put the pan in the middle rack in the oven for about 15 minutes. The should have risen and look golden brown. Take a tooth pick and stick it in the muffin if you pull it out and there is muffin stuck to the pick than it needs more time if not its done.

Once The muffins are taken out of the oven I let them sit for about a minute or two and then I take a fork and flip them onto there side. I like my muffins to have a crispy outside so I flip them and then take them out of the pan and place them on a cooling rack. This gives them a great crispy outside.  Yummy Yummy!

In our house 12 muffins made this way usually last a day and a half. We usually don't have any muffins after the following morning. L has so much fun with this and she is so excited that she made something for us all.

This is just a fun quick and easy thing for us to do especially on a rainy day. The clean up is super quick and easy as there really aren't many ingredients and you are just using 1 big bowl and 2 measuring cups.

Quaker Muffin mic for the win in this household!

Weekend Update Monday!

Saturday

Woke up this morning and it is seriously cold and gloomy not really what I wanted to wake up to but I'll take it. It's better than not waking up at all. L had a bloody nose last night. She confessed that she had picked it in the night this is the second time it has happened this week. I'm happy she told me the truth thats a good sign.

The day ended up turning into a really nice day and warmed up a lot. L instantly put on her princess dress once it came out of the wash. She thankfully isn't as obsessed as my little cousin was. My cousin used to were her princess dress everywhere and all the time. Fingers crossed we stay this way.

 We had a pretty relaxed day I had to work for an hour so L spent the hour with my sister upstairs While I worked. After I was done working we went outside for a little bit because L wanted to go outside so badly she was repeatedly begging to go. She would ask and I would say "In just a minute mommy is just finishing something." Well of course that answer wasn't good enough so the whining and persistence started. I swear she practices crying in the mirror she has gotten so good at it. Usually I just have to call her a drama queen or something silly and she will start laughing.

We went outside for a little bit and the little boy across the street was outside so naturally L wanted to go over and visit with him so my girl being the big girl she now is (she's 3 1/2) asked if she could go across the street as long as she looked both ways. I agreed and watched her. She would get to the end of the driveway and yell "NO CARS!" She would look back for me to give the ok and then she would run across the road. When did my girl get so big!

Sunday

Today we woke up on the wrong side of the bed well L did. I always love getting woken up to her whining and crying. Todays dilemma was that her PJs that she got from santa for christmas are starting to get too small. I'm pretty sure she has gotten a lot taller in the last few months. She got this one piece reindeer jammies that is super cute it has antlers on the top of the hood and it even has a little tail. I thankfully was able to resolve that dilemma pretty quickly and then it was time to get up and start our day.

It turned out to be a beautiful weekend. I had to go out to one of the local trails to do some work. L stayed with my parents while I did that and she was so excited when I got home. I got a bunch of big hugs. The rest of the day was pretty laid back we just did work around the house and just spent some family time together.

I'm That Mom

I don't know about you but I am totally that mom that documents everything when it comes to my kid being sick. I have pictures of every rash she has had since she was an infant. I have notes on my phone of temperatures that she has had and at what times. I am that anal mom who takes 20 pictures of rashes and things on my kid to show the Drs just in case.

My kiddo has had a few rashes in her days she's almost 4 and has had hives, postviral rash, eczema rash, severe bum rash, some bacterial rash I can't remember the name of from when she had a severe  runny nose, and she's also had a blister rash from amoxicillin. To many rashes if you ask me. I'm sure I'm probably forgetting a few in there as well.

This week has been fun L yesterday was complaining that she was feeling very cold. My sister noticed that she was radiating heat as she was sitting beside her so when we got home from dinner I took her temp. It was 100 so I gave her some medicine and a cool bath and put her to bed. This morning she woke up and I took her temp and she was 100. So I let daycare know she wasn't going to come in and I gave her some medicine. She was hungry so I gave her a slice of toast with butter on it which she ate half of. For most of the day we spent laying around on the couch and in bed every so often having spurts of energy. She drank a bit of water and juice. She had a cookie and a few cucumbers and cheese but that was basically it for her she didn't want to eat anything else.

It is now 2 am as I write this and she woke up about half an hour ago wanting a drink. She's been talking in her sleep all night. And I took her temp since she was already up and it was 103.1 yikes. More medicine for her and a cold cloth on her forehead and she's back asleep. I have written down everything about today her temps and what Time they were taken as well as how much medics I have given her. I have down what she ate and drank and what time I noticed a rash starting on her stomach. And then I thought OMG I'm that mom!

My family laughs at me for it but I know from experience with all of Ls rashes and what not that the Drs appreciate having the pictures to look at to see how things have progressed it there has been time between when a rash starts to when it is clearing up. It usually ends up that by the time we get seen at the Drs office her rash has gone down a lot all ready.

All in all I'm OK being that mom!

Giving options

I feel in my household that it's important to give my kiddo options when it comes to things like giving up toys. I don't want to just take things and give them away without her knowing I think it's good for her to make those decisions for herself. This is something that I have been doing with her for the last few years.

It all started with an overwhelming amount of stuffed animals that were taking over our room. I sat down with L and held a stuffy up and gave her the option to keep or get rid of. I was very surprised when she narrowed it down to just a few stuffed animals. We ended up getting rid of a whole garbage bag of stuffies!

Our next endeavour was to go through her toys. This one I was positive was going to be a struggle. I told her that the toys she didn't want to keep we were going to give to new babies so that they could have fun and play with them. Easy peasy lemon squeezy! another box of toys off to new babies and a less cluttered room! I can't believe how easy it really has been and even if she says she wants to keep something and I don't think its something that she will ever play with she is super easy to reason with.

Today we tackled her clothes. We went through every drawer and she said she wanted to keep or give away. There were a couple items that she was far to happy to give away because she hates them (jeans). Then there were a few things that she thought she wanted to keep but I didn't think she would need or would still fit so I would reason with her. Most of the time she will give in and give that item up because she will realize that mommy is right and that item doesn't fit with her age and what not anymore.

It makes me proud to think that L can make those decisions and she doesn't get overly upset if at all about getting rid of stuff. Basically I'm glad she's not a hoarder. I know myself I have a hard time getting rid of my own stuff. You always have that thought in the back of your head. What if I need that someday? That I am glad L doesn't have and I hope she never does.  

Fitbit Blaze *REVIEW WEDNESDAY*

I used to have the Fitbit One and I loved it it was super easy to use and it did have a band for you to track your sleeping but I just found it a pain to have to take the one out of its case to put it in the sleep wrist band every night so I usually never used it to track my sleep. During the summer we went to the drive in and I had my one hooked on my bra like usual and when I got home it was gone. BOO!! I tried finding it but wasn’t able to so I had to get a new one Fitbit was awesome and gave me a discount to replace my One after trying to see if they were able to help me find mine so I decided to take the plunge and get the Fitbit Blaze. 

I am in love with my Fitbit Blaze! I actually love that it is a full size clock face and not just a bar like the other Fitbits that you can get and it has an actual watch band whereas I have seen the other Fitbit wrist bands have a little toggle thing that you have to push through the band to get on which I feel like I would struggle with. 

Now that I have it I love that I can track my sleep with my Blaze it automatically knows when I fall asleep by my heart rate and can tell when I'm in the different sleep cycles. The info on these cycles used to be very basic until recently when Fitbit did an awesome update. Now you can see more defined sleep cycle it shows you the curves of when you are in a deep sleep and when you are awake and it shows you what percent of each you are in during the night. 

The Blaze has a feature where it will show you exercises and how to do them. It has a silent alarm to wake you up in the morning with out a loud noise. You can even change the song you are listening to on your blaze. Another feature I like is getting my notifications when ever someone texts me or messages me on my business Facebook page. You can customize this so that you can get notifications from all the available spots or just a couple. So lets say you have 3 email inboxes you could have notifications for 1 inbox or all the inboxes! 

The main thing the blaze is used for is to count your steps of course. I was worried about the blaze or any wrist warn step counter counting my arm movements as steps. I am very happy that I haven’t found this to be an issue and I find it very accurate. I think it is also fun that you can challenge your friends and family to step competitions. 

All around I LOVE my Fitbit Blaze and would highly recommend it to anyone looking to purchase a Fitbit. 

https://www.fitbit.com/en-ca/blaze

Schedule

So I have started getting organized and one of the things I'm doing to do that is structuring my content/blog. This should help me keep on track and keep posting. So as of right now Mondays are going to be a weekend reveiw as I don't post on the weekend. Tuesdays I'm going to do some kind of tip Tuesday. Wednesdays are going to be a review day. I have one all ready for tomorrow! Thursdays I'm still figuring out what I want to do and the same with Fridays. Those 2 I'm still figuring out what I want to do. I think this will be a good mix of stuff so far and I'm going to try it out for a bit and see how it goes. You never know unless you try! I have started getting some review posts ready so I'm excited about those and I'm hoping to incorporate more images and stuff into my blog to make it more visually appealing. Change and structure are good. L will be home full time in a week and a half  so having some structure will help me keep on track while she is home with me. Sorry this is a short post but I just wanted to tell you what's going to be happening.

Easter Weekend

This weekend was Easter weekend! The Easter bunny started gathering things for L a few months ago as He didn't want her to get a bunch of chocolate. L was super excited that the Easter bunny was coming to the house.

This Easter was a little different for our family as this is the first year that my grandmother wasn't there (She passed away last year) and My grandfather is now in a home. My cousins also went to Disney this year so really Easter this year was very very small.

We ended up going out to dinner on Saturday night with the family we did have in town there was about 9 of us all together. L was the only child there and boy was she cranky! Basically every little thing made her go off crying. I feel like she practises crying in the mirror so that she can perfect it.

Easter morning L was up at 7am wanting to see what the Easter bunny brought her. I ended up getting her to stay in bed for another hour before she got to go see. She was so excited to see that the bunny had eaten her carrots and drank her water. We told her to see what the bunny brought her which was on the table beside her plate. She walked right past her stuff and walked into the living room looking for her stuff like there was going to be a tree with presents underneath as if it was Christmas. We had to call her back to the table to see her stuff.

Once L looked at her Easter basket we got ready and piled into the car. We went out to Brunch with my grandmother. L ended up eating mostly Strawberries and bacon. Brunch was pretty good they had a bit of everything. After brunch we went for a drive out in the country and just talked until L and I fell asleep in the back seat. I'm pretty sure pictures were taken I haven't seen them yet though.

When we got back to the house L went for some quiet time and then we went outside to play a little as there was a really nice warm breeze. Later on we went down stairs where the Easter bunny had left some eggs for L to find She sat at the bottom of the stairs telling us that she was sooooo excited and had the biggest smile on her face.

All in all it was a good weekend and L was very sad this morning that it was all over.

I love her!

I love her! L is the coolest kid I know. She is very quirky but in a good way! She has an obsession with pinecones as I have told you all in a previous post. She collects them and we have a big lantern cupboard thing that she puts them in she calls them a family and she says "I'm going to take them home to their family." She has been taking my old camera and wearing it around the house and taking pictures it's really cute looking back at what she has done. Seeing things through her eyes is definitely interesting. She is a very outdoor person and loves being outside all the time if she could you would spend everyday outside picking up little stones and making a mountain out of them. She loves to be creative she loves drawing and painting and doing crafts. She also is sarcastic and often makes comments at the perfect moments that make us all burst out in laughter. She is my favourite person in the world. She is seriously the reason I keep going everyday. I honestly don't know where I would be today if I didn't have her in my life. My life wouldn't be as happy and amazing as it is now. I don't think I would have accomplished a lot of the things I have since having her. I love her!

Summer Plans

Summer Plans! I always have a lot of plans that I create and want to do but half the time they never get followed through. Well this year I am determined to do at least a few things on my list of things I want to do.

- Take L to the zoo for the first time! This could actually happen this year as we received a free child admission to the zoo with the purchase of an adult pass. So this is the one thing I really want to happen because I think L would have so much fun and she loves animals!

- Go to the butterfly Conservatory.

- Go Camping. This we are kind of doing I will probably count it as doing this but we have rented a cabin at a local resort. We will be spending our Canada weekend there and we are very excited to get away and do this.

- I want to relax with L a little and just spend a few days by the pool not caring about work or anything. Just the 2 of us having fun together.

- I want to read 2 books this summer. I should say I want to read 1 book because lets be real I never get time to read but I figure its better to give myself a big goal than a little one.

- I would love to go to my Aunt and Uncles this summer with L and spend some time with them L loves them and they think of her as their grandchild as their son doesn't have any kids but is L's god father.

Those are basically the main Big things I want to do this summer and I'm hoping to do at least the first 3.

30 Random Questions!

1. What did you want to be when you were a kid?
- When I was a kid I wanted to be a CSI. I was in love with the tv show and Grissom on the show. So I had decided that that was what I wanted to be when I grew up.
2. Which 'friends' character do you relate to the most?
- Phoebe I feel like the 3rd wheel in the friend ship. the awkward one.
3. Do you like your name and why?
- I like my name. I don't think I could picture myself having a different name it would just be weird.
4. How tall are you?
- 5 foot 4 1/2
5. How tall were you when you were 10?
- God only knows I couldn't tell you.
6. Are you a messy or Clean person?
- I am a messy person.
7. What is your Guilty pleasure?
- Bold BBQ Doritos
8. How many pringles can you eat at once?
- probably about 5 at a time but why would I want to you should savour them!
9. What are you saving money for right now?
- All kinds of things a house, a new camera, new lens, new IPad for L
10. Tea or Coffee?
- Coffee but I do like a good tea every once in a while.
11. Are you an Extravert or an Introvert?
- Introvert I need to know you pretty well to show you my true self.
12. What is your Halloween Costume this year?
- I am going to be the mom walking my kid around the block haha.
13. Sweet or Salty?
- Sweet!
14. Favourite social media?
- It's really a mixture but probably Facebook because I'm on it so often for business and than Instagram and Twitter
15. Who is the last person you kissed?
- L gave her a kiss this morning when dropped her off at daycare.
16. What is your favourite breakfast?
- My dads Waffles with chocolate chips and maple syrup YUMMY!
17. When did you start your blog?
- 2014 I believe and then left for 2016 and then back again in 2017.
18. What is your opinion on the Kardashians?
- I don't really have an opinion I watch there show every once in a while but I'm not like OMG what is happening with them. They are basically like every other person unless they are influencing something directly in my life than I don't really care.
19. How would you describe your style?
- I really don't have a style and if I did right now it would be the style that involved sweat shirts and yoga pants and jeans.
20. What colour is your hair?
- It's dark brown with Grey highlights from my hair growing out and not having dyed it in a while
21. What colour socks are you wearing?
- I'm bare foot so Skin toned :P
22. What is your dream job?
- Full time photographer, So already working my dream job :)
23. Dogs or Cats?
- DOGS!!!
24. What makes you weird?
- Everything I am weird in so many ways.
25. Celebrity Crush?
- OOO this is a hard one if I was going for like older Celeb crush it would be Sean Connery cause OMG that voice. If I was going for younger Celeb Crush it would be Chris Hemsworth.
26. Opinion on Cigarettes?
- Don't like them I have tried them but never liked them.
27. Do you want children/How many?
- I have 1 but would love to have more and I would love to adopt/foster a child at some point in my life I would be happy with 2 or 3 more kids.
28. 3 Favourite boy names?
- Samuel, Henry, Johnathan
29. 3 Favourite girl names?
- Grace, Lyla, Lillian
30. What colour are your eyes?
- Brown

Morning walk

Today we went on a lovely morning walk in the fog to get to daycare. L loves fog she says its her friend and talks to it as we walk. "Good morning my friend Fog" "look mommy my friend fog is here" she's the cutest! along out short walk to daycare the birds were out and L had fun pointing them all out to me. I love seeing that the trees and plants are starting to regrow and come out. As L would say Spring is BEAUTIFUL! There is a tree on one of the corners near our house that L loves because this tree has Pine cones that fall to the ground and she loves to pick them up. We currently have what L likes to call her pine cone family. I only allow her to pick up the pine cones that are on the side of the fence that we can easily get them I wont allow her to go into that persons yard.  After dropping L off at daycare I took my time walking home thinking about what I was going to write for today's blog. I also stopped a few times to take some pictures of different trees and things that I liked the look of. I would love to do more blogs like this where I take pictures of details and things and post them for you guys and I think that will be something that I will slowly start doing more of as the weather gets nicer and I spend more time outside with my camera. I'm super excited for this year and this summer. Last fall my dad decided that he wanted to ask my aunt and uncle if we could do a big family vegetable garden out on there property in the country and they said yes that we could. So I think soon we will start getting prepared to start this and I am very happy about it. I think it will be a great thing for L as well. 

The decision has been made

So I have decided that I am going to blog Monday to Friday and then leave Saturday and Sunday as family time other job times. So weekends no blog posts will be posted and there will be blog posts during the rest of the week.

I think this will work out better for me all together. It will give me time on the weekend to figure out what my posts are going to be during the week and even get them started and or scheduled to post. It may even be that I have my Monday blogs be about what happened on the weekend if we did anything exciting.

We will see I just know I want to get this going as much as possible. I would love to post as much as possible as well eventually I think I may start doing theme blog days but for right now its going to stay pretty random.

I enjoy doing this and hope I can keep it up!

SO NERVOUS!

So today is the day it's my first in car driving lesson. I have only driven 2 other times in the last 2 years and that was in the country. I have never driven in the city and it scares the crap out of me. did I mention its also raining today! Gah I have butterflies! I know I will be fine and I'm going to do fine it just all makes me nervous. Thats the point of having an instructor to teach me how to do all this so I really shouldn't be that nervous cause she will be there.

I am however excited to get driving and learning so that I can get my license and have more freedom. I have had a car sitting in the driveway waiting for me for the last 2 years. I think its definitely time to get this done and over with and rip off the bandaid.

There is so much that this will allow me to do and I think I will feel better about myself as well. I will be able to just get out and go. Take L to do things on our own without needing anyone else to take us. Maybe I can even get L into gymnastics and be able to take her on my own so that it doesn't depend on what anyone else is doing.

Oh great now its snowing wish me Luck!

My Child is Nuts!

My child is nuts she's adorable and funny but she can be a nutso! We went to my sisters soccer game last night to watch her play because L wanted to go so badly she was jumping up and down in my face begging me to go so I gave in. L was in awe of the big soccer dome we walked into it was huge! We went and sat down on the bleachers near the field where My sister was playing and that when the nut cake came out.

We were sitting on the bleachers by ourselves for the first little bit. There is loose netting all around the field so that if a ball comes flying off the field it can stop it before it hits people. L was very hyper and I had a hard time getting her to stay in one spot which I didn't mind at the beginning as long as she was staying with in the perimeters I had given her. She went from the top bleacher to the bottom and back up to the top and was moving all around. She was jumping off of them and sliding on her belly on them.

My kid is a relatively good kid and listens most of the time.

People came and sat on the top bleacher behind us so I tried to reel L back in and keep her in a smaller space while watching the soccer game preparing for the ball to come towards us. At one point L starts yelling Daddy, Daddy, Daddy which she doesn't have and doesn't even know who her daddy is so I told her to stop being silly. After that a gentleman and 2 teenage boys come walking by us and L jumps out and growls at them scaring the gentleman and making him jump. In my head I'm laughing but mortified at the same time and I quickly told her not to do that that it was not nice.

By the end of the game she was using me as her personal jungle gym. Lets just say I was happy when the game was over but I'm also glad she had fun and I get that it's super boring for a 3 yr old to sit and watch a game so I don't fault her for that.

Movie in the sky!

As kids growing up my parents would always surprise my sister and I with going to "the movie in the sky", The drive in and we thought it was the coolest thing in the world we still do! I have been excited since L was born to take L to the drive in for the first time it is one of my fondest memories as a kid and I wanted L to have those memories of her own. So last summer my sister and I decided that we would take L to the drive in the first chance we got.

Instead of just going to the drive in we decided to make a day of it we went and got dinner and then we went early to the drive in and got a good spot. We then proceeded to go play mini putt that was attached to the drive in. so basically that day we did 2 things for the first time with L Drive in and mini Putt. The day we chose to go there really wasn't any real kid movies like animated ones so we ended up going and seeing Alice through the looking glass and Avengers. We made a bed in the back of my sisters truck with a blow up mattress and pillows and blankets. It was pretty comfy thats for sure. L was super excited for the whole night.

At this point we were trying to get L to potty train but she wasn't really into it yet and was still in pull ups. We were near the end of the first movie and L yelled I HAVE TO GO POTTY! So we ran into the concession and went to the potty and she actually went! I was so excited that we went and got her a treat on the way out. She ended up going potty again on the potty 2 more times that night.

By the second movie we were all pretty tired L had fallen asleep and I wasn't far behind her. I still haven't seen the end of the second movie or the middle really. I ended up waking up in the middle of the credits with L cuddled up next to me in the back of the truck she had drooled all over the front of my shirt. She slept all while I put her in her car seat and all the way home until the next morning.

I will never forget my girls face that day and how happy and excited she was. When I look back at the pictures you can see the twinkle in her eyes and the happiness.

She can't wait till the summer so we can go back and I can't either!

Gymnastics!

So this weekend we did something that L has been  dying to do since forever! We went to GYMNASTICS!! L's face was ear to ear smile and she was jumping up to down saying gippy gippy cause thats how she says Yippy and its the funniest thing. I have never seen my kid so happy it was really awesome.

This weekend was open gym day for kids to come to the gym and try it out go on the equipment and see if they like it and to be active. I was surprised at how brave L was and how much upper body strength she has that I didn't even know she has. The best part for me other than L's excitement was that it was FREE!

I was very happy with L and how well she did at the gym. There were some kids that were running around the gym wild running in front of kids and not waiting there turns even older kids, L stuck to the gym rules which was one kid at a time on the equipment, she waited her turn to go on it all and was just over all good.

In the gym they have a the big ropes hanging from the ceiling for kids to climb up and swing on L ran straight to it when she first saw another kid use it and swing from one block to another she HAD to do it as well. She waited in the line and when it was her turn she held on to the rope and freaked out slightly and then threw herself over the edge of the block to the next one. She proceeded to do this non stop for a good 10 minutes if not more.

L's next great feat was the trampoline. She has been on a trampoline before and loves jumping but the trampoline at this gym you can see through it all the way to the ground below and that scared her. I ended up having to go on it to show her that it was ok to go on. She ended up sitting down on the mat on the edge and slowly creeping onto the trampoline by herself she then stood up and started jumping and that was the end of it she wasn't scared anymore and kept going back to jump on it over and over.

We ended up staying at the open gym the entire time they were open so just over 2 hours and let me tell you when they hung up that giant rope tears were shed and my girl was pissed. L ended up huddled in the corner crying 1 because she was exhausted and 2 because she absolutely did not want to leave.

NOW I have to figure out how to make it work for her to go to gymnastics and actually learn cause she loved it so much and I think it would be great for her. It is now on my todo list of things that I need to figure out in life. It seems to be getting longer and longer haha.

Bedtime accidents

Aww my poor baby! L took forever to potty train she pretty much refused to for a while and that was fine I just kinda went with it tried to get her to try using the potty it was a no go. Finally just one day it clicked for her and she was done with pull ups. She has only had 2 accidents since that day and those were at daycare. When it came to bedtime I tried to give her a little more leeway with it and kept her in a pull up for a few months after she was fully Day trained. I started to notice that she wasn't having any accidents in her pull ups she was getting up in the middle of the night to use the potty it was all good behaviours that I was looking for her to start. So pull ups are now a thing of the past in this house. I do put an accident pad on her bed underneath her sheets just in case but I have only had to change it once and that was tonight. My poor girl came crying to me so defeated she had peed the bed. Poor thing was balling her eyes out she was so upset at herself. I told her it was ok and that accidents happen because they do accidents happen. It was probably my fault anyway we had stayed out later than normal and she was pretty tired and we forgot to get her to go pee before bed. My sister heard her crying and came to help. We took her wet cloths off her gave her a quick bath which she was also upset about and cried the entire time. I changed her sheets peeled the bed pad off which I still have residue stuck on my fingers from how sticky it was. Jammie's changed bed cleaned and she's asleep within minutes. I felt so bad for her but I knew there was no reason to get mad her for it what good would that do. Live and Learn! We will definitely be making sure that we go pee before bed every night and I may move the potty closer to her bed so there is less distance between the 2.

Empowering Myself

I have been single now for 2 years and yes sometimes its lonely but I'm kind of happy with it. I'm working on doing things for myself and L not letting anyone tell me I can or can't do things, not having someone tie me down and control certain aspects of my life. My last relationship I was in was a doozy. I didn't really understand how bad it was until it was over and I got out of it. Both L and I are a lot happier not being in that relationship anymore. It held me back I was being made to feel bad because I was working and trying to build something for myself. I'm working to build a life for L and I that we don't have to depend on anyone else and thats the life I want, I want to be able to say hey I did it I got here without a man. I am a strong, intelligent, and happy woman and that is exactly what I want people to see in me. In the past few months I took a huge leap and quit my part time job. My income is solely based on what I bring in with my business I am mine and Ls sole provider now I have to get my butt in gear everyday to bring home the bacon. I know I can do this and I know that in the next year big things are going to happen for us. I went and started my driving lessons so that I can get my license which will be a big step in becoming that much more independent. I can't wait for our future and what is to come for us I can't wait to see what I can do with my business this year I just can't wait for everything!

Audiobooks.com

So I have recently been into audio books and started getting them through Itunes but I  wanted to find something that was easier to use. I ended up searching and finding Audiobooks.com and was surprised at how much there really is in audiobooks. It's a monthly subscription for about $14.99 and you get a credit each month for a new book to read. when you sign up you get a free book cause your first month is free. You can make a wish list of all the books that you are wanting to read/have read to you and then when you have a new credit you can go ahead and read away! so far I am on book number 2 and really happy about it. I am a generally busy person and love to read but unfortunately never have time to just sit down and read a book as much as I might try it just never happens. This allows me to read the books I have been wanting to read while I do the things I have to get done during the day. So if you are looking for a good Audio book app I would defiantly recommend Audiobooks.com!

I'm Back!!

Wow it has actually been forever since I last wrote anything on here. A lot of things have changed that's for sure. I'm currently laying in bed listening to L snore in her bed I find it so funny how much noise one little person can make at night if she's not snoring she's talking
In her sleep or she's doing both haha. I'm having a hard time getting to sleep tonight so I thought what better time then now to go through my emails and clean out my inbox and then I realized that this blog was still active and sitting here all lonely for over a year now. So I thought what the heck lets get this puppy going again. So here I am making the first blog post on here of 2017! It was just the other day that I was sitting on my computer thinking gosh I miss blogging well here I am. Hello again world! Well it's been a while and here's the update I'm still a single mom. I still live with my family (still have a house goal). I now work for myself and no longer work for a company so I work from home yay! L starts school this year (OMG I can't believe she is getting so old). At this point L is still in daycare but will only be there for another couple of months while I get some things sorted out and then she will have 2 months home with me. :) I'm so excited to have her home with me everyday during the summer I'm positive she is going to love it too. She is so excited for school she can't wait. I'm excited as well cause with me now working for myself I can make my own hours and actually try and enjoy the summer with L instead of having to get up and go to work every morning or night. Don't get me wrong I work everyday anyways but I get to make the hours and say hey I'm done working for the day whenever I want so it should make for a good summer. Well I'm going to leave it at that tonight and I will hopefully get back to this and try and post More regularly! Night!